January 2011
20 posts
Like I do.
I read the last message you sent me over and over just to make sure we really did happen. Each time I read it brings me back to the days when we didn’t worry about being unfaithful, falling for other people, and most of all, saying goodbye. I can’t lie, I know I regret giving up on something I’ve worked hard for, for the past years. But I knew we had to walk away from each other....
Why can't things go back to how it was before ?
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Clouds.
I sat on the couch, searched Claire De Lune on youtube and left it playing…suddenly familiar feelings started to come back…I closed my eyes.
I opened them. I was crossing the bridge connecting the Marketplace and the parking lot. I looked down and saw my friend Seth staring up at us. I felt something warm enclosed around my left hand and realized that you were holding my hand. We hear...
I can't sleep.
The thoughts of loneliness creeping up on me. Can’t find my phone and I’m restless.
Hand me the world.
Whatever happens to what is lost ? Is it ever found again , or do the remnants just fade away into an abyss, while everyone pretends that it has never happened ? Can I pretend like this doesn’t hurt at all ? That a year has gone by since we confessed our feelings for each other, except things are different this time around ? Can we keep trying to scrub off what’s...
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Wrong direction.
The past is creeping up on me. So sudden a swift wind from behind pushes me on, but somehow I find myself going backward. I pull myself away so I’d go the right direction, but gravity and brain no longer has connection. I am forced once again to relive what I’ve wanted to forget, but I know regret is why I am here. The consequences of reminiscing has brought me lost between what is...
The Liar.
youxsaidsteph:
That typa guy that lies to you about a lot of stuff so you’d like him more & more. All the things you two were talking about, you realize was just complete bull. Then you don’t even know in the end which things were real & which ones were fiction.
That one sneaky guy that is good at lying & not getting caught. & he gets away & you’re left wondering about who...
So.
Most guys are assholes. I didn’t say ALL, I said most.
Especially the ones that lie too much.
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I have my days when I miss you & everything sucks.
Today is not one of those days. Today I absolutely don’t care & everything’s wonderful<3
Release ("Ex")
Today I woke up and realized…I am gunna grow up and let go of the things I gotta. I only get to live once and I’m young. I’m only in high school once, & I will enjoy every second of this as much as possible. No more hurting, no more grudging, no more hatin.
So I texted my ex today & told him sorry for being a jerk to him…he texted back saying “It’s all...
Our Story
Once upon a time not long ago, we were best friends. Whenever I had boy problems and was hurting, you were the only one I could run to and vent out to. We grew up together throughout the years and had ups and downs together in our own little world. You broke up with your girlfriend. That girl played you. My boyfriend cheated on me. This boy keeps hurting me. Whatever we went through, it was...
Reality vs Expectation
Reality - I walk in. I see you sitting next to your girlfriend. You turn around, look at me, then put your arm around her discreetly thinking I didn’t see it.
Expectation - I walk in. I see you sitting next to a girl. You turn around, look at me and walk towards me with her. You give me the biggest hug ever and say, “Steph, this is my friend, Deniece. We’re working on a project...
Just give me a chance.
When I say something more than once, I really mean it. Please don’t belittle it or push it away like it’s nothing. It’s not often I actually say what’s in my heart.
You, I really really like you. I’m trying so hard, but you won’t let me. Stop spending so much time building those walls brick by brick. I know you’ve been hurt and fooled too many times by...
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& this;
I have a best friend that just happens to be a boy. He’s always at my house since he lives right next door. But every guy i talk to, do they always have to let it bother them ?
The other day three in the morning while I was texting bay boy, he started trippin… Sayin stuff like “but couples usually start as best friends”, and “he’s always at your house at...
Reality.
I opened my eyes. Sunlight was making its was through the slits in the blinds, making horizontal patterns across the room, making my skin look like a striped prison outfit. My stomach gave a weird lurch, warning me that I needed to fill up the tank once more before I go vroom out somewhere. But before I could even say “kitchen”, my sister pulled me out of the bed and into the bathroom,...